Friday, September 29, 2006
gratitude
you know how some people are always saying that everyone has a choice to do something they want or something they dont wanna do? i think thats all bullcrap. we dont really have a choice do we. its like people always take for granted that when asked, that something will get done, but never really show any gratitude after that. or like when you fail to do something they ask, and they start giving you all bullshit reasons why you are in the wrong. and ultimately, you really are for yourself, because now ones gonna help you in the end. and thats basically it because no one really cares what you think, they just want things done. i mean who wouldnt want things done just by the snap of their fingers? even i would. but if you dont try to help yourself, no one else can help you much either. what will happen when they are not there anymore? to help you and guide you. do you give up? or carry on on your own? and if you can do that then, why not now? theres only so much of a person, and theres only so much that a person can give, no one can ever please everyone around them 24/7, theres a limit to giving and taking. sometimes we have to think for ourselves and sometimes about the others helping you. and we shouldnt have to take a whole when given an inch, we shouldnt have to take advantage of the kindness given to us.
if only the world stood still, and all thats left alive is me and you.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
lovee
for a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. you want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. a kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. you can't cheat your first kiss. trust me, you don't want to. cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything.
the first thing we really learn in life is communication. funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. or how to ask for what we really need.
Monday, September 25, 2006
booyababy
so im sitting here in the mid afternoon, waiting for my inspiration to come. hoping my cat shuts up, cause he has been screaming his little freaking heart out since i dont know which unearthly hour. but he looks like suchan angelic fatass so i cant bear to kill him. anyways, steve irwin is long long long gone rights? so why do i still see turtles in front of everyones nick. hello? he's dead and he's gone so move on!
maybe i should do something great in my future, probably make a show about how i save all the many whatever im going to save and when i die people will remember me by putting a donkey in front of all their names, or where t shirts to remember my passing. or waste precious money buying flowers for me after im gone.
uhh, manutd drew with reading pls! wtf is going on man!if it aint ronaldo its someone else! cant we all just get along?! and play properly?! fuck! thinking about it seriously burns me.i swear im not watching man u play ever again! you just lost a supporter jackholes. grr.
i can resist everything but temptation.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
shoppiiiiiiinnnnnnn
crap! so im like cheating cause i havent really been blogging. it was freaking prelim week man! so ya have to forgive me. and yes! its official, im currently addicted to online shopping! all carms fault for getting me hooked! im so gon shave all your hair carm! but thank god i dont spend like her! she like totally spent 100 bucks in one week on online shoppin rights! so im not that insane after all. hahah.
exams exams exams! it seems like forever since i last studied la. and so jumping back to the books aint really easy! plus my minds not really there. and art is mega time consuming! its like you dont really feel like doing anything after bloody painting. or whatever.
and did i mention MANUTD LOST TO ARSENAL? i mean, wtf were they thinking? at home? how?! why!? STUPID? YA! and OOOOHHHHHHHHHHH well, as usual, ronaldo ROYALLY SCREWED THE WHOLE BLOODY GAME UP! he'd better not do it tonight or really im seriously setting his home on fire. whats the point in arguing for a free kick when you know you wont get it anyways! just get the hell up and fucking run for it! hate the bloody defence la. o shea doesnt use his brains! get him off the team! saha is the only one playing really, rooney aint even on form. the team is meesed up, maybe i should just support portsmouth or something, yay, way to go middlesbrough. ok fine, you know i dont mean that, but i will if they dont quit disappointing me.
so its surprising cause life has been more than fair to me these few days. before you came, it was a black and white picture, now you've filled it with colour.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
black&white
when the day comes, we cant wait for night. when the sun comes, we cant wait for rain. we hope for everything we dont have. like they say, the opposites attract. but when we really do have it, it always aint enough. we keep wanting more. more money, more time, more joy, more love. we keep wanting so much that sometimes we dont really realise what we actually did want. and its a shame because the first thing we ever wanted always happens to be the best thing ever given.
if i've your attention, i'll never let it go until you hear what i have to say.
if i've your attention, i'll never let it go until you hear what i have to say.
Monday, September 18, 2006
dont move
and because you have all of my heart, i'll never let you go. you're my forever.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
you could be my someone, you could be my scene
why's it gotta be that everybody's gotta see the sadness. everybody's lonely, we dont have to be lonely. we're always complaining and questioning why dont we have such luxury. but now i see, because we dont have to seek so hard to find love. cause it always happens to come running to us.
so baby dont move at all, cause you're about to break my fall.
Friday, September 15, 2006
love has been erased
what would you do when your world feels like its crumbling to dust and that that one person you'd expect to be there to blanket your fall aint there to catch you?
take tomorrow baby, one day at a time.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
take tomorrow baby one day at a time
we often dont realise how important something is until its all over. and by then it'll be too late to regret. we tend to block out all reasonings and advice and try to make ourself right. well can you try to convince yourself that your right, but i guess thats why we have a conscience. but if guilt really doesnt overtake you from the inside then i guess that something under your left chest aint there. when will we change and learn to grow up? to really see the big picture as a whole and notice its intricate detail and realise that what we have been given and what we have is actually a pretty amazing painting. to learn to appreciate what your given and not whine about what you dont have or what you have. to be grateful for the people you have around you that has made your life something worth living for and not cry and feel remorse only after they have left you? you can tell me that people are just made like that, but if you already know it, and have a choice to change your actions, how many of us out of this millions will actually do?
i seem to be putting myself out there all the time. and each time i try to take a step forward, everyone else pulls me back again. it feels like im doing so much but none of it is ever for myself. im taking everyones hand but no ones taking mine. im trying my best to help everyone out there but no one seems to be helping me.
give me all your fear, and throw it all away. think about the good things, no matter what they say.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
peopleeeeeee
in this world, everyone is for themselves. people say things they dont mean. they say they care for you, but do they really? human beings arent selfless, no one is. they might sound concerned, but truely i think, they just dont really care. its as if they are obliged to ask you. people are just relieved that that something bad didnt happen to them. or it was them who made it happen and they're prolly just trying to rid their guilt. actions speaks louder than words. but i dont see such acts. i honestly dont.
words are just words, you cant prove anything with them. i mean does `i love you` really mean anything when you dont say it with your heart? and how many of us actually use our hearts to say it anyways? well probably at times but i mean if you can tell me you say it sincerely all the time, then i think thats a really big lie. people get so fond of saying it we actually forget the real meaning behind it.
but a hug can tell you all sorts of things without even you opening your mouth. it can mean a simple hello, or a goodbye. or i miss you or i love you. but thats when you get really lucky. most of us dont have that comfort.
listen. do you hear people crying for help?
Saturday, September 09, 2006
lianeee baby
my dear LCBS!
time to grow up sab!
it aint christmas but liane finally got what she wanted!
LOL!!!!!
i know liane, your thinking about how much ya gon miss me!
myy fav buncha ladiess!
dont ever go into styling liane!
liane liane lianeeeeeeeee! yanno how much i miss you alreadyyyy?? come back here asap! and i'll say hi to kp for you. ..... hahaha. i bet the weather and people and food and everything there stinks la. told you not to go right! dont listen laaarrrrrrr. your dvd is with me so MUST remember me of else its mine. hahaha! remember liane, dont get wasted and get pregnant and nine months later come back with a baby bouncing on ye knee.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
hopee
i don't know if i can explain this, but you give me hope. and, i'm afraid say it out loud because maybe if life finds out it'll try to beat it out of you and that will be a shame. because, we all can use a little hope sometimes, you know. that feeling that everything's going to be okay and that there's going to be someone there to help make sure of that.
there will always be something to ruin our lives, it all depends on what or which finds us first.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
faith.
sometimes its not very good hanging onto a feeling. no point getting crushed after such a long period. six other billion hearts are waiting for you to catch em. why not take a chance?
faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
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sometimes we dont have to swing too far to find what we're looking for. baby its just you.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
sevsn days without you.
sitting here, counting the hours. waiting for the sun to kiss the sea. paralyzed by the fragrance of the flowers. they remind me of you and me. making plans, just to stop the aching. chasing thoughts from a million miles away. hypnotized as another dawn is breaking. i rehearse the words i want to say. this one love in a lifetime. our two hearts of a kind. three reasons you'll be mine. for there's five or six ways through. seven days without you.